din go work today. had migraine. dunno why suddenly will have migraine. but i think it's really a blessing that i was able to work night shift for so long yet not have migraine.. cuz i'll get migraine attacks when i dun sleep properly or get exposed to bright lights. funny right?


wonder how's dante doing at work alone... oh ya! i wanna share a blessing!! Right now, i'm living of my pay, which is pathetic. And right now i'm left with 12 bucks to survive until 6th of feb, which seems like ages away... And using adult fare, i constantly have to spend alot of money on transport.. But God knows what i lack. So on sat night, my mom asked me if i'm going out on sun.. why? Oh, cuz i was thinking of making your ez-link card GIRO. !?! internal screams and exclaims!! Wahaha! That means i don't have to pay for my transport fees!! Yay! And she gave me a lil money to eat as well... so, i'm so blessed! And i just got my ez-link card back from her. It's GIRO now!!


i slept for the whole day today.. woke up occassionally to check my messages. think i can't sleep later. hah. sigh.


I still wanna learn spanish and skateboarding...!!!

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

it's been a long time since i last did a quiz...

Can't stand it anymore. Since i've started working, 4 guys are interested in me. And seriously, i dun see why they'd like me. They dun know me personally.. And i'm not feminine at work.. i wear baggy clothes and my ugly spectacles... ... dun understand them.


But inevitably i feel flattered.


wynnie went to work with me yesterday.. the ppl there dun believe that wynnie's a chinese.. she got a culture shock. hokkien vulgarities and cigarette smoking. Ouch, my head hurts now..

Service rocked today. Really hope to get a copy of the service on vcd..


Some stuff happened today that really upset me. Sigh. Could feel my heart tighten, blood freezing and tears welling up my eyes. Oh wells. It's over.. Get over it jesse.


Oh ya! i've decided to change my name. Now i'm officially Jesse. Yea? It's my baptism name, signifies a new creation, though i've been baptised 4 years ago... ...


I'll be quiting my job on tuesday.. Will be going jobhunt again.. Hope i can teach in Anderson, and find some part-time job at night.. There are worries about quiting my job. Firstly, it's the cash. I'm broke. Mom's not giving me any money now. Secondly, it's the ppl i met at work. i really wanna keep in touch with them. I feel very burdened for them. I dun wanna exclude myself from the world and isolate myself to only mixing with ppl in church. Only when i've started working did i realise how long it has been since i've last heard vulgarities. Nonetheless, i wanna trust in God that i'll be able to find another job with better hours. And pray that i'll be able to still sow on the ppl i've met.

went to accompany dante to go pierce her ear yesterday.. haha.. she thinks that it's painful! Her expression was so funny.. yet she claim to have a high threshold for pain...


Met 3 of dante's frens at work. And guess wad? They're christians! They're from city harvest. Really blessed to be able to have christians around at work.. It's no smoking and virtous speaking for us. yea man!


Forgot to ask anderson if they want relief teachers. the problem is, when i was a student, there wasn't this thing as relief teaching. Teacher never come, sleep. Hmm, wonder if they'll take me.


Lost my sense of time and day at work.. cuz it's confusing to go to work on wed and be released on thurs, and then thurs released on fri. Wad happens in the morning seems so far away when reflected upon at night.. dun get it? forget it.

went shopping yesterday.. for new year clothes and shoes.. FUTILE! Hah. Too indecisive.. And my legs ache so much after walking around for bout 4 hours.. haha.. my stamina declined..


Looking for another job again. Shall go negotiate with my agent again. See what he says.. the thing with night shifts is that it changes my sleeping hours and now i have trouble waking up for morning meetings.. serious trouble... really pray that God will provide for a better job. but my only worry remains.

purpose of morality

This question was posed to me by a patriotic singaporean who is currently serving the nation in army, alongside with an airhead who firmly opposes his religion of logic.


What is the purpose of morality? Seriously, this question never came across my mind. Morality seems so important in our daily living that i never questioned its purpose.


2 types of morality. Absolute, and relative. Absolute morality is where a superior being, like God, defines the clear lines of morality and all creation are to abide. Relative morality is where no one defines morality, but each one of us has our own definition of morality. Some ppl supports cloning, others dun. Some encourages abortion, others promotes the sanity of life..


Consider the world we live in. Why are laws important? Note that some laws do not interfere with moral standards, and some morals aren't defined in the law. But laws somehow represent the 'absolute morality' in a society. And it is important because among men, morality is relative, and to have order and stability in a society, there has to be laws that upholds certain moral values that the society in general finds important.


Laws come along with punishment so that rights can be protected effectively by ppl with authority.


Consider the spiritual world. God is omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent. And it is He who defines morality. He defines what is right and what's not. If there's no such thing as morality, there won't be sin, there won't be sinners, and there won't be a penalty for sin, and there won't be sinners paying their price for sinning. If God loves us SO much, why not he just abolish this whole morality thingy..?


Morality in the spiritual realm, is as important as laws in the physical realm. It brings about social order and stability. Imagine having billions and zillions of ppl living under one roof in heaven with no moral standards. Everyone can do anything they want and it is impossible for healthy relationships to take place effectively. Your closest fren may backstab you the next moment and to him/her it's perfectly alright. There's nth we can do. OMG.


So, God's not a sadist God that instituted morality to see sinners suffer for their sin. And it's perfectly fone for God to define sin. Since he's the greatest entity. Alpha and Omega.

where God was when the tsunami struck

i was pretty happy when a headache struck me at around 130am. it means that i am now able to sleep earlier. but after tossing around in the bed for a while, i heard my phone sound -- someone msged me. And i realised that it's 2am. i can't sleep.


So, here i am. trying to make full use of my time. Dennis mentioned during combined ulm today about an article in the commentary section in sat's straits times newspaper..It's written in reply to another article titled "Where God was when the tsunami struck" This topic, coincidentally, was the same as that we were discussing online. So.. here's a summary.


It was argued that if the all-powerful, all-knowing, and all-good God controls all of creation, he must also be the author of, and oversees, all evil too. Yet, how can a good God permit evil?


If God permits evil, God is probably not omnipotent, because He is limited by first, man's free will and, secondly, by natural laws, such as those which decreed that when tectonic plates shift far enough in the right places, tsunamis inevitably follow. God should be able to control His creation.


It was then rebutted that we assume that a benevolent deity must, by definition, be benevolent to everything in his creation -- every inanimate and animate thing, but especially each and every human being. But, must He?


This assumption constitutes of a man-centred view, where man is in the centre of God's plan.


What about a God-centred plan? It is God who decrees and brings to pass everything according to his will, for his own purpose and glory. If that makes God sound selfish and self-centred, think about a god who brings everything to pass for someone else's purpose and glory rather than his: That someone is necessarily a creature, like man, which would make god an idolater who worships creatures. That cannot be.


In a God-centred view, when the tsunami struck, God was where he always is -- on his throne, working out his will, perfectly.


Sounds quite hard for an unbeliever to take. But what is amazing is that though God is able to do anything he want with us, his minute creation, he chose to, out of his love for us, to bound himself to his word, that he gave us as a promise, that every single word in the bible will come to pass. And it is written in the bible after the great flood in Noah's time, that God promised never to destroy mankind completely. It's God's grace that sustains our every breath. For he owes us none that he should provide for our breath, our pumping of the heart, our voice, our ability to think, blah blah blah...


So when our mindset changes to that which is God-centred, God's grace becomes so rich and real in our lives. It's all in our perspective.

sign up now!

Heya! Do sign up now at www.FACTS.com.sg Basically it stands for Families Against the Casino Threat in Singapore.. Voice out your disagreements with regards to the setting up of a casino in Singapore, and do justice to the democratic process in Singapore. Yay. I'm the no. 25914 person on the petition. :) Yea.

Am gonna pierce my ears tml. :D Anyone interested to pierce your ears? Hee.


Anw, contemplating on quiting my job.. shall see if i can get to work tml... but my only worry remains.. hmmm. just saw PM Lee wearing some red chinese traditional costume.. looks pretty weird.. haha.


Faith. Hope. Love.

t r u s t . . .

Sigh. Din go work today. Think they aren't happy bout it. Positive. Afraid that they won't gimme work yea.. Was really busy today. Not like i purposely dun wanna go work lor. How..? Pray. Trust. Hope. Faith.


Service was really cool today. But dante din come. She was sleeping!! And she went to work.. keeps her in prayer..

Work work work work work

A direct opposite of the previous entry. Worked continuously on tues, wed and thurs. Today got break!! Yay.. It's more tiring than i thot it'd be..


From Wed onwards, the staff from the Kallang factory came over to our Changi South factory.. so that results in 2 different lines of work with 2 diff supervisors.. And sadly, i had to work with the new one = stricter one = no talking = later break one.. Sigh. And she stopped my clique from talking when it's us who fold the boxes fastest. -_-" There's this 2 nerdy looking guys who do things super slowly.. One will make sure all the boxes are arrranged neatly to the 1 mm.. And the other will stone before and after folding a box.


And i found out that compared to my collegues, i led the simplest, most innocent life. I dun smoke, dun drink, dun club, dun get involved in pre-martial sex, am straight, dun curse, din drop out of skh, goes church. Hmm. I really feel very burdened for them and i pray that God will help me to be able to relate well with them, be relevant, and be able to influence them.


Gotta go for rehearsal for service later.. Been some time since i sang. Gotta memorise all the lyics..!!

No work today.. :(


Sigh. Pray that they'll call me tml for work.. cuz i can't work on wed and fri night.. so my survival depends on tml.. Argh. hate the way things are going..


Shall go call them up to ask.

Hee.

Hah. i met this guy at my workplace and he is just . s o . c u t e . !!!! Hah. He's a brilliant combination of ziqing's height and tan + daryl's looks with bigger eyes and sharper features. OMG. Let me sound bimbotic for once. :) And i had a few chances to work with him :D Hah.

Dun get stumbled. It's natural for a girl to have infatuations.

Just dun nurse them..

Guess wad? Guess wad?! Guess WAD?! GUESS WAD!?!

Haha. Singapore won Indonesia to win the Tiger Cup 2004/05!! Woot!! Hee. Tho i'm not exactly optimistic of Singapore's sporting industry, it's this strange sense of national pride that makes me proud of singapore.. And i am soo.. proud of lionel lewis, singapore's goalkeeper.. he's done sucha great job saving all the goals.. And he is so worthy of the mvp title.. Woot!!

Of me working...

Hmm. Started working on thursday night.. yea. night shift, production line.. those kind where around 10 ppl sit alongside in front of a converyor belt assembling stuf.. hah. It resembles serving NS.. it's brainless, mandane, and boring.. but i like, somehow..


On thursday night, i did one of the simplest job along the line.. but on friday night i was given one of the hardest.. and there's quite a lot of pressure and anxiety cuz the boxes come very quickly.. and they'll get jammed up at my section.. so i have to speed up and at the same time be calm enough to do my part well.. and cuz it's very fast i have to keep standing and that causes strain on my back as well..


The ppl there are pretty interesting... ... hmm, it's the first time i see aunties flirting and teasing guys... so, hmm, pretty 'interesting'.. And a whole bunch of ah bengs and ah lians... Lol.


Besides them, i met this 4 ppl who are pretty funky and really nice to talk to.. They came in in pairs, but somehow, we got together as a clique and stuff.. (cuz we're english-speaking while the ah bengs, lians, and aunties are mandarin-speaking.. Lol.)


Oh ya, i met a Y-hope there.. hah. wad a small world.. And he's from NE.. ?! hah. Not Northeast tho, but North E. Hah.

Thots


...to enlighten
to confuse
to destruct
to restore
to create
to destroy
to innovate
to build upon
to feel
to empathise
to clarify
to question
to love
to hate
to control
to decide
to hold on
to let go...


congenital yet
complex ability


it's tis dat differentiates
us from beasts.


Yet.
For the human mind is limited, just as life is.
Do we have the access to all knowlege?
Can we even begin to comprehend
the vastness in its entirety..?
So when inability comes in to the picture
how much room should be left for faith..?


Do i think too much?

Hmm. Got a tuition assignment.. Think i'll be rejecting it. Cuz it alone can't support me.. hmm. will be trying out another part-time.. it's a night-shift job. Pray that i'll be able to adapt to the sleeping hours..

Thank God that i din have migraine today.. just very mild headache. :)

a lil publicity for ..::s.i.m.p.l.i.c.i.t.y::.. :p

I still want your opinions!!

1. Why are we born sinful?


(a) Cuz' we'll still sin even if we're not born sinful.. cuz satan is still around..
(a-i) But to assume that we'll sin even if we're created perfect.. Isn't that a lil too assuming..? Like we'll definitely sin juz bcuz satan is around to tempt us..


(b) I was thinking along this line.. for a simple reason of procreation. If man are born perfect, ie. without a sinful nature, yet living in an imperfect world, ie. with sinful ppl around, there will be confusion as to who needs salvation.. it's not practical.. i think..


2. Natural disasters..


(a) To show the fragility and uncertainty of life.. (warn about death)
(a-i) There are other ways to warn us.. like accidents, diseases..wadeva.. right?


(b) God has His perfect plan to protect us..
(b-i) But.. innocent lives are lost.. His plan doesn't protect us ALL .. yah?


(c) To warn us of probable similar natural disasters.. And so we'll be able to prepare ourselves..
(c-i) Refuting my own point.. God is omnipotent.. He can do all things. He can prevent all natural disasters from even happening.. we won't even need to prepare ourselves then..


3. Wad happen to those who din get a chance to hear the gospel? Or those who can't understand the gospel?


Any takers?


I have to admit that being an agnostic is easier.. but it's like sitting on a fence bcuz you can't decide which side to fall on.. It's too laidback a 'stand' for me..
Malaysian!! Get out of army and argue with me!!

My 2 best frens..

Hmm. Wanna take some time to appreciate this 2 pals.. They've always been there for me for the past few days, thru' my job interviews, my ups and downs, happy times and sad ones, and believe it or not, even when i'm asleep, they're still there. And they never fail to encourage me to strive towards christlikeness. Wanna dedicate this post as a tribute to them.. And they are... *drumroll...* 'Mr Migraine and Ms S. Cramp!'

Wadeva. Gif thanks in all circumstances. :)

No more Paris for columnist

Taken from 'The Straits Times'...

NEW YORK -- Gossip columnist Lloyd Grove has made an early New Year's resolution: No more Paris Hilton.
He devoted his full column in Thursday New York Daily News to the ultra-rich heiress -- and why she would not appear there ever again.
What is his beef? "The arc of Paris' 'career' -- from rich,witless party girl to rich, witless party girl with a hit television show -- is an insult to the American sense of fairness," he said.
He laid out his objections to Hilton, who became famous after appearing in a sex video with her boyfriend.
He said she had bad manners, including cutting to the front of a long line at a hip Manhattan night spot, was a bad tipper and had poor taste in men.
But he said there were a few circumstances under which he would reconsider the ban: "If she discovers a cure for cancer, wins the Nobel Peace Prize, launches herself into outer space -- or even gets her high-school diploma."

What else do i have to say?

Today is Sabbath!!

It's Sunday = Sabbath day.. hah. Went to watch 'Meet the Fockers' along with Daniel, Wynnie, Gideon and Debbie.. The movie is super funny, though it's slapstick.. really made me laugh.. But there are some jokes that went a lil overboard.. I like the parts when the dog got flushed down the toilet bowl, when the Focker daddy lay in front of the travel bus as a form of silent protest (as in the 1960s), when Pam's mum held up wad she thot was the umbilical cord was actually Gaylord's foreskin (cut off during circumcision), when the Focker dog got s*xed up and chased the other family's cat around the house...Hah.. And as a typical comedy, everything ended with a 'happily ever after' ending..

I can't believe that i actually missed the live telecast of the memorial service for the tsunami victims.. I was at Taka with Daniel and Wynnie.. And they had a live telecast of the one minute of silence on the big screen at basement one.. Argh. Was prolly stoning at that moment..Or maybe i was still laughing away in Lido..

i want your opinions!!

wanna start a discussion online.. the question is,

Can a good God exist in the midst of evil and natural disasters?

An atheist friend of mine (yes, it's you) asked me this question, and i was stumped, as usual (i'm always left speechless when he starts talking) ..

1. Why is it that Man (except Adam and Eve) are born evil? That we don't have a choice as to whether or not to be evil, in the first place. We're assumed to be sinful. With this in mind, can God be good?

2. Why is it that God allows natural disasters to occur? And more often than not, they take away innocent lives and cause chaos. Nothing we did caused these. And there's nothing we can do to prevent these.

3. What happens to those who died without hearing the gospel? Those who can't understand the gospel?


The purpose of philosophy is never to complicate, but to simplify. Never to confuse, but to enlighten.

Food for thought.. For believers of evolution.. (personally, i believe in natural selection leading to 'evolution') But i have doubts about man and apes having the same ancestors.. One question is.. in the tsunami, no animal is found dead.. this is due to their natural instincts and whathaveyou.. why is it that man, and only man, dun have such instincts? And we claim to be the highest form of life. Could this suggests that Man are more than animals? Or does it suggests that Man are so stupid and full of themselves that they can't escape a simple wave in the ocean that even ants can escape?

As a southeast asian...

On a brighter note...

Singapore beat Indonesia in the first leg of the Tiger Cup fianls 3 - 1 !!! Hah. This is prolly the first time i'm praising the Singaporean soccer team.. Hah. Anyhow, the team really did well this match, considering that it was played on Indonesian grounds and Indonesia performed well last match against Malaysia.

However, i really sympathise with the Indonesian players.. Some of them have relatives still missing in Acheh and other parts of Indonesia. Lousy timing for a soccer match.

Hope they won't lose so badly in the 2nd leg. hah.

Giving thanks..

Was at the bus-stop when i learnt to give thanks. Saw a middle-aged man with his wife.. and all his limbs were amputated. Yes, all. He stood on one bended knee, amputated few inches below the knee-cap, and the other leg was amputated at the joint. Boy, it must hurt to even stand. And the hands are off as well..

On the bus, i saw yet another man, with serious walking difficulties, holding the crutch in one hand, and the handrails in another, trying to cross the overhead bridge. He took 5 secs to climb one stair. I pray that he's not there, still. For a person like me who dun get all whiney when i see hurting, dead, or needy people, these scenes stirred me. That person could be me. And nothing i've done made me any deserving of the health I've been endowed with. Guess i'll think twice before complaining about bad migraine and stomach cramps that cause me to lose my appetite even if i haven't ate for the whole day.

Strangely coincidental, the sermon for the day was about healing.

During altar call, sister jasmine called for people who have illnesses or have relatives with illnesses to come up front to the altar to be prayed for.. Personally, i wanna be prayed for, bcuz at that moment, i'm having mild migraine and feeling naueous. But i decided to minister to others first. And i'm taken aback at the prayer requests some people bring forth to me.. These people go through so much ordeal in their lives, and here i am grumbling about my migraine. I can't help but to feel so much compassion for the people that i prayed for. And though the migraine and stomach cramp din go away, i learnt to give thanks and to put others before myself. I'll never know how God would wanna use me to minister to the people. And i dun want my puny issue to hinder the advancement of the kingdom of God.

Decided not to refute the stuff singaporeatheist has. Cuz' most of it is crap. It's bias, senseless, lotsa emotions involved, and pure ranting.. so, too lazy to refute lah.. will be focusing on more sensitive and deeper issues.. still trying to sort out my thots. yupp.

Phone charger spoilt yesterday, prolly due to me mistreating it.. Many thanks to my daddy who replaced it for me. :)

Dressed up for an interview i wasn't sure if i should go.. decided not to, but it's weird if i stay home dressed up, so i went walking around parkway..

Was at the bus-stop when i saw this malay family (i'm not trying to be racist, it just happened to be an apt description) made up of a father, two boys and the youngest being a girl. The 2 boys were leaning against a fence and one of them kicked his slippers across to the other side of the fence. Upon seeing this, the youngest girl, sucking a milk bottle, ran around the fence to pick up the slippers... so cute.. hah.. When she returned, she leaned against the fence and her slippers went across the fence.. then one of the boys ran around the fence to pick up her slippers.. lol.. i'll pay them 5 dollars for 15 mins.. just kicking slippers and running around fences..

Went church office for shepherding. On my way there, i saw a caucasian digging his nose (i'm really not trying to be racist...).

Watched a movie on Channel 5 just now. 'Wolfgirl' It's about this girl born with hair all over her. Her mum had no choice but to leave her in the hands of a circus lest she be killed by the townsmen. The circus is made up of 'weird' ppl, social rejects with ugly features or unusual abilities. So the girl grew up in the circus as a wolfgirl. She has to act like a wolf and perform shows every night. People shunned her when she walked along streets, and dogs bark at her when they see her. And she hated it. She's just like any other girl who wants to look pretty.. normal, at least. Then she met a boy who has a scientist mum, testing out a medicine that can remove body hair. So, she started to take the drug. Hair started to fall off.. But the drug has an side-effect.. it'll make the patient violent, liking the taste of blood. So, at the end of the movie, all the hair on her body fell off, and she looked 'normal', but she behaved like a wolf, living in the wild and killing people.. (note the irony involved)

About beauty and being 'normal'.. i was thinking about this issue this afternoon. It so happened that i got pimples on my forehead resembling the Orion's belt.. And i'm personally very disgusted by them. So i started thinking about the importance and benefits of looking attractive. It was then that it dawned upon me that if i, being a girl, esp., am accepted and well-liked by people only because i look good, then it's really pathetic. Because outward appearances are inborn, genetic, and independent of our personality, character and who we really are. To be appreciated solely based on a trait that is endowed upon us by laws of nature, that is pathetic.

Español..

Got too bored at home waiting for a job.. so i borrowed an 'instant spanish' book from the library..

Trying it out..
¡Hola! Me llamo Jessie. Soy de Singapore. ¿Qué tal? Buenas noches.

Lol. The more i try speaking spanish, the more i'm falling in love with the language. But it's spoken with so much accent and variety of tone it's funny to converse in spanish on the streets.. Hee. Next time can rebuke ppl on my blog in spanish.. haha.. jk..

Few phases for self-entertainment..
Buenos días (Good morning)
Hasta luego (Bye)
Me llamo (My name is...)
Uno, dos, tres (1,2,3)

Haha.. i love the wriggling of the tongue in accordance to the accented parts.. Plead me, and i'll teach you how to pronounce the phases.. :D Adiós!

7-Eleven

This idea of working at the 7-11 store near my house suddenly came into my mind this afternoon, and so i decided to give it a try in the evening...

Before going to 7-11...
What should i wear? Not jeans, cuz it's just 2 blocks away from my house.. Prolly berms.. which berms? Not too casual.. but not too formal as well.. Ok, i've finally chosen wad to wear. I bathed, changed, took my hp and keys, and left the house.

On my way to 7-11...
Wad should i say? Hmmm..
Me: Hi, do you need part-timers? *innocent smile*
Shopkeeper: Er...
Me: I can work in the morning, at night, and even through the night, since i live 2 blocks away, yupp..
Shopkeeper: Hmmm..
Me: I dun need high pay, just enough to live, like maybe 5 bucks an hour? I dun mind lower..
Shopkeeper: Okay, around here, you'll have to do some mopping every 3 hours to keep the shop clean, and arrange the goods accordingly..
Me: Yupp..
Shopkeeper: Once in a while you'll need to do some stocktaking when supplies come in.. I'll teach you how to do the cashing in first..
Me: Sure...
Blah blah blah...

In 7-11..
Me: Hi, do you need part-timers? *forgot to smile innocently*
This quite short but nonetheless taller than me guy with fairer skin and longer eyelashes than me: Part-timers? *Gently... yes, he spoke gently*
Me: Ya?
Shopkeeper: Okay, just leave your particulars here and i'll call you back tomorrow. *Gently*
Me: *wrote my name and hp no.*
Shopkeeper: *looks at the paper*
Me:... that's all?
Shopkeeper:*smiles at me gently* Ya.

It's a new year... again

My daddy just changed the keyboard.. and it feels so much better than the previous one.. :D Anw, it's another year. Channel 5 cancelled the live telecast of the nation's countdown and i was a lil disappointed. But i dun see how cancelling the telecast will make the victims of the tsunami tragedy feel any better. Nor will it bring them back to life. All it does is to further emphasize the tragic-ness of the tragedy. And hopefully reflect upon us Singaporeans as sympathetic kind souls who would mourn together with those affected. What i feel they should have done is to continue with everything planned, only to add prolly 3 minutes of silence for the victims... and a donation hotline to raise funds for the peple affected.. We can't keep dwelling on what has already happened.

What replaced the countdown was a pathetic computerised 'countdown' that goes '10..9..8..7..6..5..4..3..2..1..Happy New Year Singapore..' Hahs.

It's a new year. Seriously, there's nothing special about it. 1st Jan is just like any other day. What's so special about it, i think, is that it symbolises a fresh start. If you've a consistent late record for school, you will be given an entirely new fresh empty record to start with, on par with everyone else. If you've blacklisted yourself in the minds of teachers due to constant late assignments and ponning of school, you'll have a new batch of teachers to start working on, who have no hint at all the naughty things you've committed. A fresh start, everything is brand new. Sure hope that everything goes well for you guys in the new year.

Nonetheless, i will list down my resolutions for 2005 (praying that i'll remember them come Jun '05)

1) Find a part-time job with flexible time.
2) Learn Spanish + French
3) Lead a sub-dis. by end Jun '05
4) Bible study on John and Acts
5) Learn how to chair in bigg groups
6) Learn skateboarding
7) Learn how to harmonise.. (my last yr resolution)
8) Active learning -- read 2 books per month

Yupps. God, help me to find a job by mid-jan. Arghh.