job

the people there are really quite friendly after getting to know them more. some will pretend to be fierce on the first day, but they're really not like that, and it's enjoyable when there's very few customers and we just hang around the counter and chat. recently the jap manager's in a pretty good mood as well, which makes life alot better (as compared to what i've heard from the rest).

made a few blunders, like taking wrong orders, saying wrong stuff, blah. but generally it's been fine.

many japanese patronise the restaurant, and most of them are tai-tais, pushing prams and all dressed up. haha. i like to see them enjoying the food, with occasional 'oishi's while discussing about the menu. i like to think that they have found a little japan in the restaurant (afterall our restaurant is a branch from japan), and it brings warmth to my heart. more than these, i like to see japanese babies and toddlers who come along with the tai-tai mothers. some of them sleep soundly in their prams, some fiddle around, playing with what is within their reach, oblivious to the world around them. if only i could take pictures of all of them and make a collage.

just tired. all my energy blown away last 20 mins when my laptop gave up on me. REASON:
(goes back 2 days ago)
jesse: i'm using battery for my laptop cuz i need to iron the clothes and i need the plug.
bro: haven't you heard of the 'multiplug'?
jesse: but i'll still have to pull the plug out wad...
bro: hurry up, plug the laptop in, you're wasting battery!
(jesse pulls out the plug for the iron)
(bro pulls out the battery)
jesse: !!! i haven't plug the laptop back in yet!
bro: how i know you so slow?
jesse: !!!!!!!!

the last thing i want to happen to my laptop is to have it's power cut off prematurely before it shut down properly. because based on past experience, my laptop will DIE. and this time it didn't revive even after 2 days.

so agitated.

but.
had wam vision night. think i benefited alot from kimwee's sharing. one part struck me. he asked, "have you loved someone before?" when it comes to loving a fellow human being, love is possessive. who wants to share a wife? but when it comes to loving God, no one will get jealous when someone else experiences God's love as well. in contrast, we will be encouraged when we hear others' testimonies. in the same way, we should apply this love to our ministries. to own it but not to possess it such that no one else can access it. lots of other stuff. but i too tired to blog all. will blog more about my job next time.

a simple romantic.

candy floss, balloons, flowers.
long skirts, bangles, dangling earrings.
hip-hop, jazz, love songs.
smell of rain, pink umbrella,
coffee on cold rainy days.
a good novel, music, live bands.
snugs, hugs, kisses.

a friend.

someone who is known, liked and trusted. one who supports and sympathizes with. its root word traces back to love, meaning a lover.

it's probably due to the once-a-month thing that's causing my hormones to go haywire. makes me yearn for, simply, a friend. but it's at these times when even a 'friend' is nowhere to be found.

it's when you have nothing, then you'll realize all you need is Him.

went cheonging. haha. my first cheonging session. never went before because i don't like blast-my-eardrums kinda music and drinking until high and dancing without restraint. yesterday confirmed that clubbing is like that, but it casts doubts as to whether i really dislike this form of leisure. haha.

got a job. woo~. haha. waitressing at a jap restaurant in marina square. the boss is nice, people there are friendly and won't bully newbies, and the food looks yummy. 50% off for meals during work. woo~.

my arms ache as if i have been doing weights. came home after 2 days of chalet, only to hear drilling and hammering from the apartment directly above mine. loud as if they were made right beside me.

Was having caregroup farewell sharing when i noticed at the corner of my eye a woman with long hair touching her waist. Unkempt and tied together. I wonder when was the last time she cut her hair. And when was the last time she bathed. I watch her take off her sandals, of one size too small, to reveal her feet with slightly deformed bones, because she has been wearing that undersized sandals for too long. The bones on her feet grow and shrink according to the shape of the sandals. My heart aches. She tries to adjust the length of the straps of the sandals. I wonder if it will help ease her discomfort. And she slipped them on again. Her deformed bones protruding out between the straps. I wonder for how long has she been wearing those sandals.

I wonder if she's happy. My mind brings me to an old man i never fail to see whenever i go to the airport. He opens and lays out phamplets on a table in 24-hr mac, and sleeps on it. I wonder if he is happy. I wonder how would they respond should they come to know the depth of God's love for them.

The hols are here. Have been looking out for a job. Shall set some objectives for the hols.
1. Practise guitar everyday for at least 15 mins.
2. Finish 3 Christian lit.
3. Save up. For perhaps hostel perhaps future dancing lessons.
4. Exercise once a week.
5. Grow in love and humility.

Exams are OVER. another semester gone. phoof. just like that. it's has been a fast yet long one. it's a shorter semester compared to the previous one, but taking 6 modules make days long and dreadful.

An eventful semester, witnessing yi-shyan's conversion and the opening of elections 2006. Night cycling, preparations for matriculation and having a bunch of sisters from youth come join the uni group. Many birthday celebrations and farewell for claire.

More adapting, more uncomfort.

All these, with God's grace with me. He sustains me, comforts me, assures me, and shows more of His love to me.

The opening of long summer holidays. I've started to look for a job. Need one to support me financially for the next year. I don;t wish to see conflicts between my to-be job and church. But i can foresee it coming.

how long do you take to get ready to get outta your house? my bro and mum agreed that i wake up earlier and get out later than my bro. okay. i need one hour to get ready. but it's a ----------------- (i dun wanna seem bimbotic).

1. choose clothes
2. iron clothes
3. bathe
4. wash face
5. brush teeth
6. listerine mouthwash
7. garnier pore tightening astringent
8. garnier daily moisturizer
9. contact lenses
10. pack bag
11. make-up (plain)
a. concealer
b. foundation
c. blusher
d. lip balm
e. eye shadow
12. pantene hair moisturizer
13. hairband
14. perfume
15. hand accessories
16. footwear
17. jesse OUT!

pardon me for lack of updates. have been burying my head in chinese readings. figured out what to study for exam *awe*. have been waiting like a fool for something to happen. but i guess.

hmmm. funny how some people nowadays are writing using weirdo adjectives and complicated-sometimes-ungrammatical sentence structures that only they themselves understand and develop due to poorly constructed thoughts. anyhows. have determined to train away my flabby butterfly arms and bouncing thighs. .. i can feel sacrasm rising up against me. hey!

anyhows. anyone wanna get the converse world-cup edition tee? it's going for 2 for 33.90 yea. i want the brazil one. share the cost with me yea? sharity elephant since primary one has been encouraging caring and sharing yea. hee.