just tired. all my energy blown away last 20 mins when my laptop gave up on me. REASON:
(goes back 2 days ago)
jesse: i'm using battery for my laptop cuz i need to iron the clothes and i need the plug.
bro: haven't you heard of the 'multiplug'?
jesse: but i'll still have to pull the plug out wad...
bro: hurry up, plug the laptop in, you're wasting battery!
(jesse pulls out the plug for the iron)
(bro pulls out the battery)
jesse: !!! i haven't plug the laptop back in yet!
bro: how i know you so slow?
jesse: !!!!!!!!

the last thing i want to happen to my laptop is to have it's power cut off prematurely before it shut down properly. because based on past experience, my laptop will DIE. and this time it didn't revive even after 2 days.

so agitated.

but.
had wam vision night. think i benefited alot from kimwee's sharing. one part struck me. he asked, "have you loved someone before?" when it comes to loving a fellow human being, love is possessive. who wants to share a wife? but when it comes to loving God, no one will get jealous when someone else experiences God's love as well. in contrast, we will be encouraged when we hear others' testimonies. in the same way, we should apply this love to our ministries. to own it but not to possess it such that no one else can access it. lots of other stuff. but i too tired to blog all. will blog more about my job next time.