caregroup. pretty cool to be sitting through one being a member. anxious about playing guitar for praise. no need to ask who's here and who's not.


i'm getting sick of this blogskin and the lousy content of this blog.

chinese lecture. boring. the lecturer kept saying jokes. and after every joke i'll pause for a split second, and thought, 'wah, really not funny eh.'

you're beautiful
you're beautiful
you're beautiful
it's true.


i saw your face
in a crowded place
and i don't know what to do
cuz i'll never be with you.


but it's time to face the truth.
i will never be with you.

today's the slackest sunday i've had for ... years? lol. chinese debate auditions. i screwed up really badly cuz i can't think and argue effectively in chinese. they're quite amused that an english debator would wanna try out chinese debate.


i overslept on the bus to tuition which was at bendemeer. i woke up at bukit timah. cool. i really dun mean to be racist. but when i boarded the bus today it was like 'phoof!' -- indian smell.


homework looks boringg. i tried reading plato's euthyphro twice. not even 1/3 thru.


sth from the deep recesses of my heart: welcome back to singapore malaysian!!! i guess i did miss you. somehow. lol. i need advice on laptops!

first day of school.


went lecture den lunch with denise. den met ruizhen. met the nus hope people at their hq. then went for lecture. in nus, the whole system by which they operates makes people lonely. i like the system of being able to choose freely what modules to take. but precisely it being so, everyone has different timetables. everyone takes different modules. you'll see different people every lecture and tutorial. it's really hard to make close friends because you'll prolly just see their face once / twice a week. no wonder they need sdu. independence or anti-social? i think i'll get used to the schedule after a month or so. for now, i only have lessons on tues and thurs. woot. cool heh.

Went to cong's house for mahjong and pizza. Was watching national day parade. The fireworks came on. And cong exclaimed, "Eh, got explosions..!!" Lol. "Wah, the explosions very nice eh.." Haha.


In life, there are many phases. It's like taking a train. At each station, some people board the train, some alight. You never know who's gonna leave. Only the rare few will stay throughout the journey until we reach our destinations. I think back the faces of those who has alighted. I think of those who might alight. It makes life so uncertain. Who are those i can really trust? Who are those who will be there for me after knowing that i'll be there for them? It saddens me deeply. Because man always fails. And so there's only One whom i can trust.

Yesterday saw the worst migraine i've ever had. popped panadols. it lasted 7 hours. cool.


Nonetheless, met the uls for farewell dinner and stayover at cong's house. i really cherish this fellowship. and i'll miss you guys alot.


i'll be strong.

it's 3 am. i look at the plate of food in front of me and i feel like puking.


Perhaps it's the time. i'm starting to feel melocholic. But not sleepy. I'm reflecting upon the seminar i went today. i realised when facing my own crisis in life, i often lean towards escapism. Occupy myself with activities so that i won't have time to think about what really happened. For the past 2 days i've been experiencing pangs of emotions flooding back to me again. They'll come to me occasionally. i know they'll go away. But i never really chose to face them.


Before i help others, i gotta help myself.


Feel like crying. I'm lost in my own fantasy world. I feel disconnected from my body. I'm as if i'm floating from day to day. *pulls myself back to earth* I'm trying to recall how i was like in the past. She seems so foreign to me. i changed alot. Yet not for better. i wonder if everything will go back to normal. i wonder if time is really so powerful.


i wish that time could fly. yet i wish that time could rewind itself.

peter's class chairman: Today's the first day of the seventh month on the lunar calendar... And it's also peter's birthday.


lol. Happy b'day Peter!


Was having dinner with dingy, cong-sie, peter, alvin. was asking wad peter wants for b'day. dingy asked peter straight in the face: can i dun buy present for you this year? go shopping very mah fan. me and peter: HEH?!


hmmm. school's starting on mon. i was looking forward to it. at least i can occupy myself with schoolwork. sigh. i dunno.


oh ya. m'sian called me. from taiwan. i wonder how much it cost you. hah. and if it'll cost me. my handphone bill! anyway. faster come back eh. hah.

went for supper with daniel, debbie and shuping. jalan kayu prata. den went debbie's house to sleepover. hee. i'm using her com to blog now while she is snoring away. Oops. haha. she forced some dark secrets out of me ytd. hahahaha. it was nice sharing our lives together. :D shall go brush my teeth now.

oh ya! the taxi-driver thought daniel was 18 years old. -_- he thought daniel was still schooling. asked him, why you carry schoolbag to work? lol.