went to watch hide and seek at 220 am yesterdae, was yawning uncontrollably halfway thru the show. It's pretty okay. Not very scary tho. Took neos with melissa today.


During service, there was this multiple-choice question to help us find out what's our language of love. And mine turned out to be physical touch. Haha, believe it or not, i enjoy hugging ppl, holding hands, and stuff liddat. But the problem is, not many ppl are comfortable with this expression of love, so it's really weird to go around hugging everyone.. haha.. yupp, if i dun hug you, it doesn't mean that i dun love you. :)


The book i borrowed from the library is ultra-heart-wrenching i tell you.. i can't bear to read on, because the way the mother treats the boy is just so terrible i feel so hurt for the boy.


Was and am thinking about pursuing dance again. I gave it up in the first place because i was impulsive and immature. Would have completed all the grades if i din give up. *hates myself* Sigh. But it'll take quite a sum to see me through this pursuit, and i'll need to put in extra effort to catch up.. Ahhh, i really miss dancing. :( pouts.

Feels a lil burning sensation on my skin after having sat under the sun for quite a long time. If only i can do this everyday. I would love to spend the last 10 years of my life along a beach in a small town somewhere in america, with my hubby, fishing and watch sunrise and sunset everyday. Enjoy the breeze, read old-people-friendly-font-sized-fiction books, relaxing and watching our grandchildren run along the beach every summer. :) Blissful.


Borrowed another book from the library, as if i dun have enough on hand. It's an autobiography, and i got the first book in the series, A Child Called 'It'. Thanks Hor Yen for lending me your ic to borrow the book. Wahaha, i just announced your chinese name. Haha. Dun try to pinch my face or tickle me, or punch me, or lift up my tank top.. Hee. Be guai.. :)


Went for music practice, and the first thing veron did when she saw me was to point at my big premature pimple. Thanks a lot. Ooh, meditative worship for tml. That song melted me. Disintegrated and dissolved into the ground during practice.

i fil wag omg

sigh. feel like crying. miss you. can't exactly comprehend myself. *deep breath*


Bought a new bible. Pretty excited about it. Got it at a real cheap price of 39, considering that the usual price is 57. Haha. Thanks to Eelee being a church staff.


dun feel ilke blogging anything here.

Men give love to get sex
Women give sex to get love


Am reading Every young women's battle. Deeply strange how i can identify with it so well. Guess i'm a women as well. Sounds weird.


Started using the spanish kit. They speak so fast i feel discouraged sort of. Should have gotten the cassette version cuz it'll be easier to manipulate.


Am starting a private blog. Won't be blogging that often. I need an outlet.

i am so tired but i have so many things i wanna do..


-homework. pretty short.
-read every young women's battle
-start learning spanish.
-read lolita
-get enough sleep cuz it'll be a full day tml.


I haven't even open the wrapper for the spanish kit. i can't believe it. I dun have the time! It's madness i tell you. And my head is pounding now due to lack of sleep, and my panda eyes are black as never before.

Am at pacific coffee now.. "Blatantly occupying the seats without buying any drinks" Quote unquote from wynnie.


Bought a book today. Have been looking for it for a year already. "Lolita" Here's a short excerpt..


Lolita, light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin, my soul. Lo-lee-ta: the tip of the tongue taking a trip of three steps down the palate to tap, at three, on the teeth. Lo. Lee. Ta.


Shall get back to my seats before someone else grabs them. Feel horribly tired cuz i slept very lil last night. But i can't bear to leave this cafe for home.

Had class today. Haha. So refreshing a feeling to get back to class. Yupp. I'm attending lessons conducted by Hope seminary, NT survey. It's very interesting, covering issues like how the New Testament is compiled and canonized, and the historical background of the era where the NT was written. Haha. A good introduction if i'm gonna study philo in uni.


Met up with dante. Lazy to type out the details. Then i met up with dehui. Got a book to teach me spanish. Comes along with 2 CDs. :) Pretty expensive, so i better make sure that i manage to master spanish.


Saw 2 kittens in my estate. They're so tiny! They're smaller than my hands.. But they're so scared of me when i tried to feed them milk.. Sigh, feel like bringing them home...


Jovin's selling his deck (only) for 20 bucks. :) haha.


I'm strangely excited about doing homework later. Hahaha. i miss school....

oh my goodness. had a GREAT day today with dantE and SOPHIA. sop rawks my world. and you cant imagine how much i do. :)

I LOVE SOPHIA. -proclaims to the world.

i am shocked dumbfounded speechless almost fainted after wad you told me. i have no idea wad to do. Not the slightest hint. How should i explain to you the truth my convictions i lay paralyzed pinned down powerless helpless. Somebody save me. I dun care how ya do it juz save, save, c'mon, i've been waiting for ya. But it's not as tho i'm taken aback. i do realise that you're capable of more. Juz shocked at the speed at which it happened. Hope you're not serious.


Wasn't in the bestest mood today. Period came on vday. Guess He wanted to make sure i dun have pre-marital sex. Hah.


Shall go meditate on solutions.

Mixed feelings. On one hand i'm worried about my group.. Bahs. On the other, i'm glad i managed to psycho dante about the importance of committment and sacrifice, so she's coming for service tml instead of going to work. haha.


I know it's chinese new year. But my mum really dun have to go to such extent to emphasize on this fact. For dinner today, we had only one dish. In it there's chicken, sharks' fin, abalone, oyster, fa cai, and huge mushrooms. Must you?


Saw two male foreign workers on the train today hugging each other, by the waist. Stared at them for 2 whole seconds.


Still can't forget how you tried to lift up your shirt to try to show me that you're wearing briefs not panties. Wad should i say?

i am a big fat pig. oink. Haha. Had my reunion dinner just now. i am so full.


Think my army bro got guilty about all the calories he gained this season he went for a run. When i woke up after my nap at around 11, i saw a drenched duckie waddling around the house. He's dripping wet.


hongbao shrunk alot this year. bro says that if it goes below 100 he dun wanna go pai nian le.. haha.. act i dun like to pai nian. But there's nothing else to do during cny. All the shops are closed.


Went to changi airport. Dun ask me why. Was waiting for my fren on the bench when this caucasian started a conversation with me. He asked me about cny and how we celebrate it. He commented that all the shops are closed, and he was starving. haha. He's a pilot heading towards japan. cool huh. He made me all drooling to wanna go overseas.. paris...

i still can't sleep..

have been losing sleep for the past few days. I'll start tossing and turning around at 3am, and if i'm lucky, i'll be able to sleep by 6 plus.. apparently i'm not today. it's 7 and i'm still up. Credit also goes to the irritating mosquito that buzzed around my ear. buzz it back.


A couple of interesting discoveries today.. my cousin's son is called kendrick. And having inherited the precious rare surname of How, he's called Kendrick How. In short, How Ken (how can?!?!) haha... funny names parents always give their children not aware of the dire consequences.. Secondly, i realised (only now) that my granduncle's daughter is a pastor over a small mandarin and youth congregation. Cool. She was encouraging me to outreach to my family members. I know.. i want to as well..

i can't sleep.


i got nth to do, no one to talk to. i'm so bored!


Know you won't be able to read this. i'm concerned about you. And i really wanna help. i'm no angel myself. Can't save you. Can't say that i understand how you feel fully, but i'm trying to. i really really care.

Sigh. just finished packing my room. last min spring cleaning.. so troublesome. hate the fact that i gotta pack my room because my relatives are coming over tml. a combination of pride and anal retentivity. dun know my relatives well.. so awkward to have to spend time together... luckily i dun think that i'll have to go home visitation when i grow up.


DUN LIKE cny songs. so cheena and yucky. It's such an irritant blasting into my ears when i shop around. Bah.


God, you know the burden of my heart. Take control. Help me be the guiding light. To relate, identify and render support.

bought black heels from charles and keith today. :D still have a lot of shopping to do..


sigh. for a moment i feel like escaping new year as well.

had caregroup today. everything was quite normal until fiona took out a ________. haha. pretty amusing. strawberry fragrance.


met dehui for dinner. then went out in attempt to buy new year clothes. failed, i've seen the stuff in town several times already. tml i'll be trying out bugis... good for dante, she bought wad she wanted... so the trip dosn't seem fruitless.


i'm spending too much recently.. save up!!


..gotta get..
globe skater shoes
roxy cap
sunglasses
black/red top
white black heels (done)
skirt/jeans
wallet

tiaffab

couldn't sleep this morning, started tossing and turning around 5 am, then i got up to eat mango. went back to sleep at 845am..


dante came for service today. :) haha. She said it reminded her of how city harvest started out in hollywood theatre. Then she waited for me for 2 hours while i had meeting before we went walking around aimlessly... talking about me being phlegmatic and indecisive, she's worse! We walked around aimlessly for 2 1/2 hrs before settling for a 1 1/2 hr supper. haha. The zipper on her waistpouch got stuck and we tried VERY hard to get it unstuck. We tried so hard we started laughing. The more we laugh, the more feeble our hands become, the harder it is to deal with the zipper, and all the more we laugh.. we laughed for so long i can't believe it.. haha.. i think the zipper's still stuck now. Overslept on the bus, walked 3 bus-stops back home. I love strolling on streets so desserted wind chilling my skeleton hearing nothing but the sounds of my own singing.


Malaysian asked me if i wanna teach gp with him.. and he's serious about it.. haha.. we'll see how it goes.


i wanna go for the planet shakers concert at downtown east!!