tired but nevertheless i wanna do a couple of shout-outs. sometimes, actually many-a-times i can't express myself well. not that i dun possess sufficient proficiency in the english language but i just can't bring myself to say certain things. that i'll just hide them in my heart and hope that they'll go away.


First shout-out to this dear friend currently still under the clutches commonly known as national serivce. Call you Ho Joe-Ann / malaysian / food guru. Hee. Really appreciate the times i have to catch up with you. Still very much amused by the letter you wrote to CASE when you were still in SJI. Hmmm. Went for church camp. And something that was said struck me. In the end-times the reality of God will be made obvious to all peoples. But yet there are people who won't believe. It is a heart issue. Even if Jesus was to appear in front of them, they will still think that it's some gimmick. If i am able to refute every question you have about the bible and defend Christianity flawlessly, will you believe in God? Hee. I really pray that you'll allow God a passageway into your life. Not even asking you to give God a passageway, but to just allow it. Just dun push God away. Perhaps then you'll have a different view about Christianity. Hee. Somehow i can feel your skeptism. Anyhow, this is indeed what i wanna say.


Second shout-out to you. Truth be told, even up till now i have no hint what i am gonna do. Seriously i feel like snuggling up someone something wadeva and sleep till eternity ends. i guess we'll have to face it one day. Cast that aside, wad i really really really wanna say is firstly, dun hurt yourself anymore. Not in anyway at all. Do it not for me. But, for the bible says that our body is God's temple and that God's spirit lives in us. God created you unique and precious. Cherish your life. It's a gift; not a curse. And God's spirit lives in you. Dun trample upon God's temple. It hurts God much more then you can imagine. Secondly, pls go find a job. Just as how you begged me to go see doc, i'm begGiNG you to go find a job...!!! You must finish school. must.


getting into braindead mode. that's all.