I woke up late today. 12:15pm. Lecture started at 10am. Boo. Subconsciously I thought that the next day is a saturday and so I could afford a few more winks. And so I missed all my lessons today. They're all lectures. Not as bad as it would have been for tutorials. I'm blogging now in qiaoping's room. Sleeping over with her and yi-shyan. It has become a routine every friday. And every time I stay over it deepens within me the urge and desire to stay in hostel. To be able to stay up late to study, late night snacks, independence, shrinkage of travelling hours, and last but not least, a room I can call my own, figuratively speaking.

Am preparing for a mini presentation on mon. Will be doing one on my lit text "Waiting for the Barbarians". I think this book has many more underlying issues waiting to be explored as compared to "Persuasion". And many more metaphors and implications. Have been struggling along for this module because I haven't touched lit since sec 2, after being deeply scarred by Miss Emily Cheng. I think I screwed up my mid-term test as well.

About history. And its linearity versus circularity. This was something the book mentioned. All along, history concerning nature has always been circular. Reproduction cycles, the seasons, day and night, even digestive systems. But in the history of nations, it has always been viewed linearly. It's filled with dates and events, names and titles. Taking a step backwards, nations' history is circular as well. The rise and fall of nations. Hasn't it been so over the past centuries? Yet every nation seek to view its history linearly, trying means and ways to prolong its rule. Have nations really progressed over the years? Or are they simply trapped in the vicious cycle set by the rules of nature?